i always thought that being passionless would be easier.
i used to envy the apathetic. feeling unpassionate about everything feels so much heavier than i thought it would. i can’t tell if it’s just the kind of person that i am or if everyone feels this way when they’re not feeling present, but everything is so much more difficult when i don’t care about things. i’m an overly empathetic person; i feel everything.
it’s the strangest thing, feeling everything and that being the end of it. it’s like running off the edge of a cliff with the anticipation of a certain result
and floating.